Casting my cares

The last few days have been hard and I know there are harder days to come. But, amidst it all, the Lord is teaching me. A few people have asked me lately how they can pray for me. It's a loaded question when I feel the weight of so much going on in our lives, on top of remembering sweet Alivia, missing her and grieving her loss. So, I sum it up by asking for prayer that the Lord would enable me, by His power, to trust Him with all the details of life right now and that I would cast my cares on Him.

I have felt the prayers of others in this area. There have been numerous times over the past few days when I am anxious, my heart is heavy, I feel no joy in my salvation, am discouraged, and want to give up the fight. It's usually when I have been thinking about one or many of the challenges facing us right now. However, I have been reminded to CAST MY CARES and that I am not doing so. So, I pray and give it to the Lord because, quite frankly, with many of the things, that's all I can do. Yes, I can strive, add to my "to do" list, try to do more, sleep less, push through with some things, but not all. And with everything, I need to TRUST. Most things are entirely out of our control and that is hard for me because of my pride. I want to see things change, want to see the light at the end of the tunnel, but it's just pitch black right now, except for the sight of Heaven. So, that's where I'll keep my gaze! And for the blackness that fills so many areas of life right now, I'll seek to trust. I don't have answers, don't know why, am feeling completely helpless, but I'll trust! May God enable me to do so.

"Humble yourselves, therefore, under the mighty hand of God so that at the proper time he may exalt you, casting all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you." 1 Peter 5:6-7

"Rejoice in the Lord always; again I will say, Rejoice. Let your reasonableness be known to everyone. The Lord is at hand; do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:4-7

And he said to his disciples, “Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat, nor about your body, what you will put on. For life is more than food, and the body more than clothing. Consider the ravens: they neither sow nor reap, they have neither storehouse nor barn, and yet God feeds them. Of how much more value are you than the birds! And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life? If then you are not able to do as small a thing as that, why are you anxious about the rest? Consider the lilies, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin, yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. But if God so clothes the grass, which is alive in the field today, and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, how much more will he clothe you, O you of little faith! And do not seek what you are to eat and what you are to drink, nor be worried. For all the nations of the world seek after these things, and your Father knows that you need them. Instead, seek his kingdom, and these things will be added to you. Fear not, little flock, for it is your Father's good pleasure to give you the kingdom. Sell your possessions, and give to the needy. Provide yourselves with moneybags that do not grow old, with a treasure in the heavens that does not fail, where no thief approaches and no moth destroys. For where your treasure is, there will your heart be also." Luke 12:22-34


How Firm a Foundation

We are home and had a wonderful time! I wish I could share some pictures, but am still without my computer (and can't put any on this old one). But we had a great time in TN with our dear friends.

We are settled back home, but I have been met with some hard days lately. Anticipating next Monday (November 2) has been weighing on my heart and causing things in life to seem bigger than they really are right now. It's challenging to keep perspective of who my Savior is. My dear friend, Jenni, sent me the words of the following hymn this morning and they so ministered to my soul.

How firm a foundation, ye saints of the Lord,
Is laid for your faith in His excellent Word!
What more can He say than to you He hath said,
You, who unto Jesus for refuge have fled?

Fear not, I am with thee, O be not dismayed,
For I am thy God and will still give thee aid;
I’ll strengthen and help thee, and cause thee to stand
Upheld by My righteous, omnipotent hand.

When through the deep waters I call thee to go,
The rivers of woe shall not thee overflow;
For I will be with thee, thy troubles to bless,
And sanctify to thee thy deepest distress.

When through fiery trials thy pathways shall lie,
My grace, all sufficient, shall be thy supply;
The flame shall not hurt thee; I only design
Thy dross to consume, and thy gold to refine.

The soul that on Jesus has leaned for repose,
I will not, I will not desert to its foes;
That soul, though all hell should endeavor to shake,
I’ll never, no never, no never forsake.


Off to Tennessee

Today Dave, myself and the girls are traveling down to visit our dear friends, the Coopers, in TN. We have been planning this trip for a few months now and are so looking forward to it. Laura Cooper has been a friend since Jr. High and Dave and Craig have known each other for quite some time as well. They have become some of our dearest friends over the years.

The trip is quite long! But it will be worth it. We'll be there for a week. I am praying this will be a refreshing time for our family and a time to built memories. It's been a challenging number of weeks and months for us, as there seem to be so many tough circumstances in our lives right now. We are looking forward to this time away.

Thanks, Laura, Craig and kids for allowing us to come see you! We'll be there soon (well, in about 12 hours :).


Dave to the rescue

From minor to major (at least in my book) Dave has been coming up huge lately!

Rescue #1
Just last week, our power was flickering on and off and finally decided to stay off. Well, my Mac was not plugged in to a surge protector and got fried. Dave thinks it's probably totally gone. As I was contemplating what I was going to do without email, he came to the rescue with an old work computer. He set it up for me and in no time I was back online. Granted, I don't have any of my files, pictures or other software (and hoping I might be able to get those back), but at least I have email and internet. You probably won't see any pictures for awhile as Dave says this old computer can't handle anything extra on it.

Rescue #2
Almost all my spare time lately has been spent working on the nursery and preparing for our next little baby girl. So, after getting the bedding (that is a whole story I'll have to share sometime) and much deliberation I picked out a paint color for the nursery. I bought a gallon and got one whole coat on the walls, stood back, and decided it wasn't quite what I was hoping for. I went with green, but it was a little dull...wanted something a little more bright and cheery. Trying to get a pale green that is not minty, but not too sage-y, is...well, hard...for me at least. After giving it some time to grow on me, I decided to go back to the drawing board. Off to Home Depot I went with a few more swatches in hand. Only after buying that whole gallon did I discover that they now sell samples that you can get mixed in ANY color you want, for $2.94!!! Wish I had seen that before buying my whole gallon! So, I got 2 samples mixed and painted them side by side on the nursery wall. After a few days, we decided on one of those 2 colors. Back to Home Depot again to have gallon #2 made up. Having had the sample color matched (it was a Benjamin Moore color) I made the big mistake of not saving the sample container with the color code on it. No biggie I thought - I'll just have them color match it again. On Sunday afternoon, excited to finally be able to get the room all painted, I set about to do all the cutting in with the new color. After completing the whole room, I stepped back and realized, IT WAS A DIFFERENT SHADE of green!!! It would not have been so bad if it was similar or a nice shade, but it was BRIGHT green, almost had a fluorescent hue to it. I had even had the guy at Home Depot put a drop of it on the actual swatch and it looked perfect. But it wasn't! I sat down on our steps and almost cried! I didn't know what to do. I called Dave up and he conferred it was definitely different. I have to interject that Dave was in the midst of watching the Redskins game. We don't have cable, but he recently got a nice HD antenna that allows him to get a few channels. This is the first time in our seven years of marriage that he has been able to watch football on our other words, this is BIG deal! But without hesitating, he left watching the game to rescue me. He took the old gallon of green paint that I had originally used and the new one and set out to mix them. What did he come up with?? The perfect shade of green! I was amazed! Not too bright, not too dull...perfect! Before leaving to go to his sister's house for dinner that night, I was able to get part of the room cut in (for the 3rd time :). And last night I was
able to finally finish up. We are making progress! And the room is finally starting to look like a sweet little baby's room. It looks so much different than the last nursery looked, but I think that is a good thing.

And before I end I just want to thank my amazing husband for how well he has cared for and served me these past weeks (and months, I might add). The past number of weeks have had a number of challenges for me. Sacrificial service and looking out for my needs and desires has characterized his actions. Sunday was just an example - giving up watching the game to serve me! I am regularly amazed and reminded of how undeserving I am to have been blessed with such an incredible man. Love you, Dave!


Happy Birthday, Heather! (from Dave)

You are... well, my emotions are messing with my vocabulary right now and I may rattle off a bunch of flowery adjectives or just have a word-wreck and screech to a halt....

This past year, our seventh, has been the toughest, yet has brought us closer than ever. We have walked through the valley of the shadow of death and found that even there our Heavenly Father was with us. You have not stopped pursuing God with your whole heart, believing His words and promises and counting them precious to you. What a beautiful woman you are!

7 years with you have made me the wealthiest, happiest man I could be. We have seen highs and lows and have walked through all of it together. So grateful I get to have you by my side for the rest of my life!


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