Remembering Alivia

We remembered a lot today...our little girl who graced our lives for 5 short, yet never forgotten weeks. This afternoon my other 3 girls went with me, for their first time, to see the place where Alivia was buried. It was a memorable time for me. There was much sadness in my heart today as I reflected on this day 2 years ago that altered and changed my life forever. I'm not the person I was before and never will be. That reality can be hard. The bitterness of November 2, 2008 is still so fresh and real in my mind. On the other hand, my memories of Alivia seem to dim a bit. That, too, is very difficult. Yet I grieve with much hope. And I find comfort in the fact that I'll see her again. Yes, my memories will continue to fade, but one day, my Lord will wipe away all this pain and sorrow and my joy will be complete and all sadness will be gone. The good that this trial has brought to our family is simply undeniable. We love our Savior more and we long for heaven with greater anticipation with each passing day.